I Don't deserve to live Should i just end it all?

I don't feel i should live because the people around me are making my life unbearable my family general. I come from the most dysfunctional family you will ever see in you life. They treat me the greatest person in the world and then later they treat me like the Antichrist(I believe the s do it on purpose) it is a great dishonor to have the same blood in my veins as those devil spawn s. I feel walls closing in on me if feel like i jest want to end it all. God knows how i survived all these years. The honest truth is i don't think suicide is the way out i was planning to do i when i was six but i was to scared. If anyone knows what i need to do please answer me.